In light of the new year, I figured a new blog post was in order. I have nothing particularly spectacular to write about today, only that I am on my 9th straight day of positive awesomeness!
If you’re the kind of person that finds New Year’s resolutions obnoxious and cliche, look away… and then come back and get over it, because any excuse for a person to better their self shouldn’t be deemed as uncool.
This new years eve, instead of going out to the bars and getting crazy drunk (don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with that! I’ve definitely had my fair share of NYE craziness), I decided to do something different this year. My best friend and I woke up at 6am on January 1st and walked my favorite trail on lake Massabesic to watch the sunrise. There was something so magical about this day – so cleansing. I’m typically a very private person and have remained fairly reserved about the events that took place in my life last year, but for those that don’t know, a lot happened that could easily shake a person’s spirit. But my new years was so refreshing. I felt so good afterward, I didn’t even want to go back to sleep… I wanted to tackle the day.
Anyway, I made a number of resolutions in all sorts of categories, including spiritual, physical and mental goals, but I’d like to share that my biggest focus for this year is to love myself, so I can better love others; to help and care for myself, so I can better help and care for others.I want to genuinely want the best for others, without envy or resentment. To me, this means letting go of the habits and relationships that don’t help me grow or make me feel good.
Last year, I lost my boyfriend – my honest to God best friend, so unexpectedly. I witnessed my mom battle breast cancer. I had to make decisions that I never thought I’d have to make. But I also climbed Mount Washington. I went on a hot air balloon ride. I read more books and finished my eighth journal. I fell in love with painting. I moved out, then moved back and started constructing plans to move out west. A lot may have happened so far in my twenty-three years, but there’s so much more good to come, and I’m thankful to now understand that I am 100% in control of that.